Nothing to transfer

I just got the call from my RE that none of our embryos made, they all stopped growing (arrested).   I'm doing okay right now, I had my breakdown last night and pretty much got it out of my system.  I'll post more later.

Day 5

I didn't sleep well and woke up early. I'm not a good waiter.  The nurse usually calls about 9:30a, so once I got to work I tried to concentrate but had a really hard time because I kept glancing at my phone, stomach churning

Right at 9:30a the call came and it was not good news. The embryos have not really changed much since day 3. Today if they were growing properly they should be blastocytes with hundreds of cells and they are still in the cleaved embryos' with only a few cells.  I talked to my doctor and he confirmed what I thought that things are looking pretty grim at this stage.    I asked him if he ever transferred embryos that had not made it to the blastocyst stage and he said yes but they have to be growing.  So right now I am trying so hard to hang on to my very fragile hopes upon at least one of these growing in the next 18 hours.  The doctors said he would call me around 9 or 9:30 in the morning with the news.

 I'm a person who hangs on to hope when all seems lost but this past year as beat me down, I'm feeling very fragile and despondent.

Day 3 Report

So the day 3 report was not as good as we were hoping for but not as bad as we were dreading.

We have:
2 grade 2's one is 6 cell and 1 is 8 cell
1 grade 3 with 3 cells

Grading Key:
Grade 1- No cell fragmentation
Grade 2- Some cell fragmentation
Grade 3- A lot of cell fragmentation

The nurse said there is very little difference in pregnancy rates between grade 1's and 2's.  

Based on this we have decided proceed with Plan B which is to do a fresh transfer on day 5 (Thursday) of the two grade 1 embryos. They will call me on Thursday morning and let me know how the little ones are doing, if they are slow to grow then we could be pushed to a day 6 transfer (Friday).  If we do it on Thursday my transfer time is at 12:30pm. 

I'm feeling slightly overwhelmed at the moment.  

Oh, and I've nicknamed our two grade 2's Will and Hester and our grade 3 is Chester.   The names are from the children's book McBroom's Ghost which I loved as a kid.